After being forced out of the office early due to the snow I embarked upon the scary and slow journey home. The train part of my trip was pretty straight forward, however I arrived at archway station and the realisation sunk in that I would be walking home.
On went the gloves and hat and off I trudged.
I turned down the first of many side streets and it dawned on me that it was pretty much silent, bar the occasional sniff from my now running nose and the crunching of my feet in the snow.
For the first time in a long time I felt peaceful.
This weekend in particular has been pretty tough.
By the time Saturday evening arrived I had already reached my emotional limit and pretty much wanted to jump on a plane absolutely anywhere whilst waving goodbye to every little piece of oppression I have been feeling.
The early hours of Sunday morning brought me to a place of quietness and semi-acceptance.
I'm not one for New Year's resolutions but I am determined not to carry any of the baggage that has been weighing me down thus far into 2010.
Perhaps for my own sanity more than anything else.
I want peacefulness, contentedness and happiness and I honestly believe that I deserve that.
I didn't know that blogging could be such a productive, inspiring, motivating exercise. I am writing more than I have in a while and am being blessed with people around me who want to give me all the things that I can and will give them.
Last night my life (but more likely the Holy Spirit) prompted me to open my bible and read the following-
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."
1st Corinthians ch13 vs4-7
A passage that most of us are familiar with but hardly ever strive towards. I think I will refer back to it from time to time to ensure that I am doing exactly what I am meant to do when it comes to those that I say I love and also ensure that those who love me are doing the same. The simplistic power that is contained in the small piece of scripture has given me a new drive, a new determination and a new sense of serenity.
I want to be a good, genuine and loving person.
Now to finish my Horlicks and head off to Iluvlive!