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Thursday, January 31, 2013

Sunday roasts

I don't like to feel as though I am asking too much of you.
My reflex is to want to crawl back into myself as I cringe at my own unintentional selfishness.
I thought it was ok to want.
To need.
Desire.
I am not starving but somehow satisfaction sits just out of reach and I am forced to consume more and more.
I know that you love and care.
Know that you are not turned off by the sight of me gorging myself hungrily on you.
But.
I am conscious.
Do not want to smother, cover or suffocate you.
I give almost all of myself and sometimes find that I am unable to decipher the beginnings and ending of our intertwined lives.
Sometimes I just need a little remind.
Then equilibrium is restored and all is right.
For a while at least.
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Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Resolution-ary

This year I have one, solitary resolution.
It will change my life, I am convinced.

Wear. More. Heels.

I will do this for 2 reasons...

1 - They make me feel, walk and look better.

2 - They make it difficult for me to run after people that I am not prepared to take them off for.

Monday, January 21, 2013

New beginnings

I was reminded this week that I hadn’t blogged since November and took that as a silent instruction to add some content.

A lot has happened in the past couple of months and in amongst that I have gained a new niece (I already have 3 nieces and 2 nephews) and have also left my job on 4thn Jan.

The decision to leave my job wasn’t an easy one and many a dialogue (both internal and external) went on to make sure that it was the right one and though I am still unemployed I am not yet worried. I have worked in accounting for the past 11 years and while I do enjoy it and am good at it I wanted to take the successes of the last year and the experience that I have gathered over the past 5 years and use it to propel myself into a new and currently uncomfortable zone.

Outside of my day job I have always done events based work for friends, for myself and also in a small part for my previous employer. I enjoy this very much and taking the leap to give it a go has come at a very natural point in my life that I can only assume God has led me to.

This year I will be working very hard to increase the services and successes of Purple Hill (www.purple-hill.co.uk) my Event Planning and Artist Assistance Company as well as looking for my first Events/Marketing full time job. I will also be heading the Oxjam Shoreditch Festival Team again and we will be working very hard to bring you a better and more exciting event this year. I think that I will end up with my fingers in many pies this year but I am prepared and excited for all of the ups and downs and learning’s and successes.

If you or anyone you know would like to discuss the things that I have mentioned above then please do get in contact at Natalie@purple-hill.co.uk.

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Pt 1

What if?
I mean.
Every action has a consequence and perhaps this is that for me?
Had many chances to allow my body to do what He built it for but I put bad decisions and circumstance in the driving seat and encouraged them to lead the way.
Looked opportunity and blessing dead in the eye and drove right on by.
Never held on to a bigger regret.
Now said same body isn't quite the same.
Imbalance and karma adjusting purpose and purpose shrugging its shoulders in impassive dismissal.
I knew they were bad decisions.
Knew it wasn't what I wanted but my own fear of disappointing those I cared for the most took my hand and carefully, silently black markered my destiny in my own font.
Even though we made those decisions together, I am sincerely happy that only one of us may never have a chance to rewrite the story.
To have 2 lives effected by the whims of youth would be heartbreaking.
I want to tell you, because I am certain that only you will really understand but I am not convinced that it is the right thing to do.
I just hope you take that step and live a full and happy life appreciating every second chance that you have been given.

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