Sunday, May 16, 2010

He says she shouldn't act appreciatively.
Says he loves spending time easily though he seems to give this sparingly and only when he wants to so, when he's had enough he says "No"
Reaffirming that she isn't in control.
She takes as much or as little as she can get.
As now, he declines more than he says "Yes"
This routine is all that's left.
She sends him invites and offers regularly and he sifts through them as he pleases.
Rarely thinking of her
As when he plans his recreational time she is never the first person that comes to mind.
He never invites her to his home, decides when he will or won't return messages or answer the phone.
All that she is left with is the burning in her stomach and her tear stained cheeks.
All that she controls is Internalisation and so she now carries more than her arms can hold.
You see, he used to want to help her carry her load.
Now "not available" stands out in bold.
He has become cold.
And she is alone.
She is missing him
He says "No"
She needs him
He says "No"
She wants him
He says "No"

He says "No"
For he has long since let go.

S.O.A.P® Blogging on the go...


Zayna Daze said...

bloody hell that nearly had me in tears Nat! *sniff :-(

S.O.A.P said...

I swear... I am always surprised by the posts that prompt you to comment... lol... It's always the ones I don't expect anyone to pay attention to.

Thank you for taking the time to read... xxx