Pillow talk

Last night my pillow became everything to me
Memories embedded within its fibres
Lingering scents taking me to Love, Lust, Love and Tears but mostly Love
It calmed my fears and reminded me of every time you made me smile
Of the times you held me tightly
Reminded me of the obstacles we climbed over
It even reminded me of the countless tears shed and then showed me how I overcame them.
I held it tightly
Protection
Trust
Shared connections
Self discovery
And
You


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Sinking ship?

I don't know what or why because I'm, as yet, unable to clearly see
Something is sitting uneasily with me
Puzzling and confusing me
Can't quite put my finger on it
My stomach says that the truth is being played with, moulded and kept from me
I guess ships crash and cascade all the time
So I'll stop, clear my thoughts, trust my instinct and wait and see
I'm sure it will find me...
Whenever it's ready


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Heat wave mirage?

So many things going on at once
Work
Family
Health
Love
Issues move around in various, jumbled patterns
It's rare that I feel trapped under anything but today...
I cried
Wishing to have a support system that would pick me up and dust me off all whilst carrying my load and then hold my hand and walk with me down the road
Rooted to the spot I think I can see it
In the distance somewhere, heat waves making it impossible for me to see the whole image clear enough
The good news is that its heading in my direction
Fingers crossed it isn't a mirage
Hopefully this forward motion is continued and I find myself blessed enough to have that hand to hold


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Today = Different

You have said it many times before
Maybe it’s the way that I am now trying to deal with things but today it felt different
I believed it and sensed that familiar softness spread over me
You have said it many times before
So why is it that today I was lost for words myself?
Didn’t really know what to say so instead I changed the subject
Felt shy, caught off guard... Lead by my heart
You have said it many times before
Maybe it’s starting to sink in?
"Could it be I'm suffering because I'll never give in?..."
No disrespect intended so I don’t want you to think anything negative
You already know it’s been a tough thing for me to grasp
I’m starting to learn that certain things are meant to last
Fingers crossed
You have said it many times before
But today, when you said it, I felt it. Real.

One day

One day... My beauty...

You WILL be mine!!!