Goodbye?

She sits on the edge of her bed waiting for the bath to finish filling
Sighs deeply, falls back haphazardly and stares blankly up at the ceiling
Through with feeling

"Done with it
A bad decision
A hopeless situation made even more so
Frustration has put blinkers on my confusion
Only now I feel more certain
This is something I have to do"

Thoughts course through her veins as hotly as her blood
Slowly she gets up
Smiles to herself as she takes one last drink from her cup
She hums
No tears

"I should call
Give it one last chance
Maybe I'm taking the wrong stance
My decisions too harsh
What if he does feel love?
No, no, he has already shown me
otherwise
Didn't stop and think when he saw tears well up in my eyes
Laughed when I cried
He's right
I am weak and useless
Can't get anything right, well, I won't wear that badge after tonight"

As she climbs into her bath she wonders how long the pain might last.
Slowly easing herself to sitting position.
More settled within her decision
She picks up her razor
Focus' on her plan
And as carefully as she can
Slowly makes a deep groove just above the underside of each of her hands

"Apparently the hot water makes it easy and quick
Warms everything up so that the blood isn't so thick.
Hopefully it does the trick..."

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Speechless

So
Frickin
Proud

More to come once I have been able to put my word and thoughts and feelings into something sensible...


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GREEDS – 2nd Sampler (Something Borrowed) with Nutty P

I haven't actually told him my thoughts on his latest offering but I am blown away.
The inspiration that lives within this guy has me in awe most times.
Things I wouldn't even think about doing myself creatively are second nature for him.
Since I was fortunate enough to be present when he started his journey on the circuit/scene I have seem him grow immensely and he is now the one to watch and in some cases, the one to beat.

The sampler follows the mixtape rules perfectly, taking well known beats and making them… well… better.
A definite lesson to all those that doubted the strength and versatility of Spoken word/Poetry.
With only 6 actual tracks, most of which are under 2mins, GREEDS amazingly manages to still provide a lil bit of something for everyone.

My favourite thing about the sampler?

Resisting the urge to “ride de riddims” and rap, this Poet remains true to the artform in which he is steadily becoming a master. I am so impressed and excited by what is to come for 2010 for him.

LOVE IT!!!!
GREEDS… I wanna be just like you when I grow up!

Just to add to the excitement, GREEDS will be performing at Jazz cafe on 7th Feb 2010, with a live band, The Remedies for UK Soul Jam. Check out his Facebook for more info.

Down load it for freeeee - http://www.sendspace.com/file/5ewba1

Check out his blog - http://www.iamgreeds.com/

Twitter - http://twitter.com/iamgreeds

Facebook- http://www.facebook.com/#!/group.php?gid=40589140717&ref=search&sid=1013139799.2908269873..1

Magic Circle

I sit in the middle of a circle of amazingly talented people.
Blessings flow abundantly as I am privy to a secret society of the creative elite.
Encouragement pours from them and they allow me to soak it up so that I can become better.
A movement.
The journey.
The new and the old blend seamlessly as we press forward.
A force to be reckoned with.
One day, I will be a great as all of you.
One day.
Promise.

Trust

Go
Sit in the presence of your past
Walk into the dark
Spend time facing the regret, the confusion, the not knowing and the love
Reminisce on the good times and the memories
Free you soul of the negativities and pain
Once you have done that you will appreciate the light you have been living in so much more
You will be able to lock that door and throw away the key
What will be is anyone's guess but this move is necessary
How else will you close the chapter without completing the book?


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