Fuck dreaming.
If I have to sleep to see it then I will never be it.
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Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Dream On...
As of late I have had more than a couple of men quizz me on my thoughts regarding the whole "sex on a first date” thing.
Now they haven't come out and blatantly asked me if I would have sex with them but are clearly trying to gauge whether or not this is something that I have and/or will do.
Fair dues to them for trying, but the response is always the same.
Never have, never will.
It would appear that one of the guys in question didn’t seem to believe that a date was actually a date unless it began or ended in sex while the other believed that I should try it as it may very well blow my mind (no doubt he was trying to subliminally sell himself to me).
Cue ‘Family Fortunes’ incorrect suggestion sound…you know the one that I’m talking about.
While I enjoy sex, very very much I feel absolutely no need to jump in to it with any/every guy who I am willing to spend a little time with.
In fact, in the early stages of hanging out with someone, my only goal is to figure out which box they will be placed in, whether they are compatible with me, whether they are actually sexy to me.
For the most part, I will talk about sex very honestly and openly because it is a bloody interesting topic where no two experiences are the same (even if those 2 experiences were one and the same event) but this does not mean that I am trying to play a game of verbal foreplay with you, we are simply discussing, reasoning, chatting. It also does not mean that you should then take this as your cue to try and force me to imagine your wee place coming anywhere near mine.
When it comes to dating, sex has a way of clouding things in this lovely sparkly mist that actually prevents you from properly getting to know that person because, like any fun filled addiction, it becomes the default for any indoor (and possibly outdoor) meetings. Of course bad sex does the opposite, and can end what could have been special had you taken the time to actually learn that person a little more and figured out how you are able to be compatible.
The thought of Sex on a first date has rarely if ever crossed my mind because, while once switched on that particular part of me is damn near impossible to switch off, I am not led by it, it isn’t my priority.
NB – Just because I am attracted to you physically doesn’t mean that you can “get me there”. It reaches further than that. A lot further.
Constantly bringing it up in a bid to convince me that it would be a good idea to get naked with you can actually serve as a turn off.
I have never had bad sex, EVER and I intend to keep it that way.
Conversation, in my opinion is the key to most things, including my chastity belt.
Just sayin’.
Now they haven't come out and blatantly asked me if I would have sex with them but are clearly trying to gauge whether or not this is something that I have and/or will do.
Fair dues to them for trying, but the response is always the same.
Never have, never will.
It would appear that one of the guys in question didn’t seem to believe that a date was actually a date unless it began or ended in sex while the other believed that I should try it as it may very well blow my mind (no doubt he was trying to subliminally sell himself to me).
Cue ‘Family Fortunes’ incorrect suggestion sound…you know the one that I’m talking about.
While I enjoy sex, very very much I feel absolutely no need to jump in to it with any/every guy who I am willing to spend a little time with.
In fact, in the early stages of hanging out with someone, my only goal is to figure out which box they will be placed in, whether they are compatible with me, whether they are actually sexy to me.
For the most part, I will talk about sex very honestly and openly because it is a bloody interesting topic where no two experiences are the same (even if those 2 experiences were one and the same event) but this does not mean that I am trying to play a game of verbal foreplay with you, we are simply discussing, reasoning, chatting. It also does not mean that you should then take this as your cue to try and force me to imagine your wee place coming anywhere near mine.
When it comes to dating, sex has a way of clouding things in this lovely sparkly mist that actually prevents you from properly getting to know that person because, like any fun filled addiction, it becomes the default for any indoor (and possibly outdoor) meetings. Of course bad sex does the opposite, and can end what could have been special had you taken the time to actually learn that person a little more and figured out how you are able to be compatible.
The thought of Sex on a first date has rarely if ever crossed my mind because, while once switched on that particular part of me is damn near impossible to switch off, I am not led by it, it isn’t my priority.
NB – Just because I am attracted to you physically doesn’t mean that you can “get me there”. It reaches further than that. A lot further.
Constantly bringing it up in a bid to convince me that it would be a good idea to get naked with you can actually serve as a turn off.
I have never had bad sex, EVER and I intend to keep it that way.
Conversation, in my opinion is the key to most things, including my chastity belt.
Just sayin’.
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Pearl
Show me your love in a single pale pink pearl for I have had diamonds before and while I had never experienced that kind of happiness before their transparency left me heartbroken, lonely and empty.
Drowning in it's reflective facia.
So, this time I will take the creamy beauty of a pale pink pearl for they do not grow effortlessly in amongst rock and stone
Amazing as diamonds may be in reality they are simply a rock.
But my pale pink pearl?
It is crafted purposefully.
A defence mechanism from unwanted parasites or dirt.
This is what I want my love to be.
Deliberate, protective, beautiful and timeless.
This is what I want. This is what I need.
Drowning in it's reflective facia.
So, this time I will take the creamy beauty of a pale pink pearl for they do not grow effortlessly in amongst rock and stone
Amazing as diamonds may be in reality they are simply a rock.
But my pale pink pearl?
It is crafted purposefully.
A defence mechanism from unwanted parasites or dirt.
This is what I want my love to be.
Deliberate, protective, beautiful and timeless.
This is what I want. This is what I need.
...
Look? what this boy done did to me
He done cut me off from a good good love.
He told me that those days were gone
Now I'm sitting here going half crazy
Cause I know he still thinks about me too
And there ain't no way in hell, that I can be just friends with you
And I wish we never did it
And I wish we never loved it
And I wish I never fell so deep in love with you and now ain't no way we can be friends.
The way it felt, no faking it
Maybe we were moving just a little too fast.
But what we've done we can't take it back
Now I'm sitting here half way crazy
Cause I know he still thinks about me too
And there ain't no way in hell, that I can be just friends
And I wish we never did it
And I wish we never loved it
And I wish I never fell so deep in love with you and now ain't no way we can be friends.
Ain't no tellin what we could have been,
And if I knew it would end like this,
I never would have kissed ya, Cause I fell in love with ya,
We never would've kicked it, Cause now everything's different
I lost my only lover and my friend that's why I wished we never did it
And I wish we never loved it
And I wish I never fell so deep in love with you
And now ain't no way we can be friends.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
She Said...
Young girl.
Just because he holds you while you sleep.
Or strokes your face while he kisses you softly.
Even if he tastes you without prompting or looks into your eyes while you make love slowly.
Just because he loves your family or lets you meet his.
Shares secrets of his past and allows you to wipe away his hard fallen tears.
He may cook for you, pay for you, drive or carry you, fight for you.
He may even hold your hand or rest his fingertips at the base of your spine to protect you.
Young girl you are too naïve.
Do not make the same mistake as I.
All of these things do not make him yours.
Your Love may cover him gently and he may call you when he is in need.
He may even say that you are perfect and that he loves you too.
But
Until he says that his heart belongs to you fully and openly offers commitment, he is still searching for the her that you are unable to be for him.
Just because he holds you while you sleep.
Or strokes your face while he kisses you softly.
Even if he tastes you without prompting or looks into your eyes while you make love slowly.
Just because he loves your family or lets you meet his.
Shares secrets of his past and allows you to wipe away his hard fallen tears.
He may cook for you, pay for you, drive or carry you, fight for you.
He may even hold your hand or rest his fingertips at the base of your spine to protect you.
Young girl you are too naïve.
Do not make the same mistake as I.
All of these things do not make him yours.
Your Love may cover him gently and he may call you when he is in need.
He may even say that you are perfect and that he loves you too.
But
Until he says that his heart belongs to you fully and openly offers commitment, he is still searching for the her that you are unable to be for him.
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